My Weight.

I have so many plans for this blog! I am actually so excited for it! I decided that I might connect it to a Youtube account. Like I will make my blog a bigger thing. This blog. I want to do youtube videos about health and fitness as well.

I have so many ideas!

But as I have promised--- here is my blog about WEIGHT.

Weight.

I always freaked out about the number. I HATE repeating this story, but just in case other people are reading this that haven't heard the story, read ahead. If you have, just skip it.

Since grade 8... even before. I'd even say, grade 6. I have been curious about weight loss. Now heres the scary thing: When I FIRST decided to start "dieting" I weighed about 103 pounds. Yeah. Scary. I was 11 or 12. It never really got too serious until Grade 8 though. Then I weighed about 107 pounds. But I remember, the thing that triggered me to lose weight--- was seeing 114 on the scale. Or something like that. I flipped. Then I went down to about 104. At this point in grade 8, I specifically remember hating my thighs being thick (they weren't) and I hated how my stomach "poked out" more and so I wouldn't wear many tight shirts. Since grade 8 grad was coming up, I started eating the bare minimum. This was the worst I ever got though. I still struggled with being able to eat and excersize healthily in grade 9. But part way through grade 10, I realized. But even then, I didn't.

this story is new to friends who know:
Besides that incident in Grade 8 of me barely eating any Calories (like 800-1200 a day, which I shouldv'e have AT LEAST 1600), there was one other thing I JUST realized about a month ago. I remember throughout Grade 9 and 10, especially grade 10, there was one thing I would do that was scary. I didn't even really FULL ON realize and remember until a month ago--- I would say to myself "Okay. I am 116 pounds. If I EVER get to 120, I am not eating and I am throwing up my food.". But heres the catch: I would reach 120, then say "If I EVER reach 125, I am NOT eating. Only working out". I would never get this far. Occasionally I would try to throw up my food-- but never successful. I would chicken out or not be able to. For the record- I have never purposely starved myself... for over 8 hours. And that was to naively teach my mom a point (I am dumb).

Anyways. Now I am here. Here? Where?

Well. Let me tell you THIS years story.

Exams. I always gain weight around them. In January, I weighed about 117-119 pounds (differing on the day). By the end of exams, I weighed 123 pounds. I gained about 3-5 poundsish. I don't remember. At this point I was like. Oh. Okay. I am going to join the gym now (I was considering joining a gym since November).

When I joined the Gym, I lost 6 pounds in next to no time. I reached about 117/118 pounds.

Not even a month after I joined the gym I decided--- I want to pack on some muscle. I want to be healthy. I am doing this to be healthy. I want muscle.

A month or so later, I checked the scale. I was about 122-123 pounds. I thought absolutely nothing of it. Nothing of it. I was like. Oh. Okay. Hey there muscle.

Yesterday (about 2 months after joining the gym, a little more then 2 months, actually) I weighed myself. Guess what I saw? 127.5 pounds. I was so happy. Happy? WHAT. THE MOST I HAVE EVER WEIGHED. I was celebrating. Happy. Exstatic. 10 Pounds of muscle in basically two months.. is literally amazing. For a woman. AMAZING.

But then today I weighed myself. Apparently I am 125.5 pounds. Well. 2 Pounds was obviously water weight or something. And.. I WAS SAD. I WAS LIKE WHAT?!?. I have only gained 8 pounds of muscle?

I love how this has changed so much.

I eat more now too. Actually, no. Thats a lie. I eat HEALTHIER now. I will have apples and oranges GALORE. I am obsessed with them. I eat so many healthy foods. I pack on the protein, lay-low on the calories and cholestorol, and keep my eye on iron and zinc levels in foods.

I am not a "Body builder" persay. I don't want to be an extreme body builder. But I am, in a way. Just because I am trying to get stronger and more muscular. But at a certain point, I am not increasing my reps or my amount of weight and such. I will just *hopefully* know when to stop.

But I have heard that once you start, you can't stop.

Anyways. Here are a list of future blog topics (or videos) I will be making:
- Running/Jogging
- Creatine+ whether or not I will start it/opinions of it.
- Protein + supplements
- Goal Updates
- How to stay motivated