Saturday, February 16, 2013

Failures

Failure is such a harsh word in the fitness community.

Sure, I have failed- but really, have I? If you get up and keep trying, you really haven't failed. Maybe you did something wrong that you had to reverse later, but eventually got back up there.

It's only failure if you stop trying.

I have this rule in which on holidays and celebrations such as birthdays, that I will eat whatever I want. On valentines day this year, I ate so much candy it was ridiculous. I am not sure how much it has affected my body because I am too afraid to take my weight and body fat %. But I must've had like 3000+ calories in candy. I might've gained 1lb. Which may not seem like a lot considering it was just one day, but when you are trying to reduce your body fat % significantly, pretty much everything counts.

I am actually kind of embarrassed about it, but I will talk about this anyways.

I wasn't going to admit this, but I've been eating candy pretty much all week since Monday. It is bad because last week I declared I was going to have the toughest diet now.

I did have a few triumphs in which I denied myself crackers and white bread, which is good. I should focus on my successes, but the chocolate is haunting me.

But I can't reverse what I did, and I am definitely not going to be bulimic.

So what am I going to do? Jump back on that horse. I am getting back into the swing of eating healthy. No more candy.

I know that it's bad to deprive yourself of candy and such, because then you will crave it more (obviously), but I don't do that. I am going to try to change my lifestyle up again. I am incorporating more dark green vegetables, less protein (because I was having too much), less "bad" carbs (like white bread, crackers), more skim milk and less chocolate milk. Removing candy, chocolate, chips, general junk food.

But again, I should focus on triumphs. I have been restricting certain foods in my diet for years. In the summer of 2010, I decided I would no longer drink soda. I had braces then, and you weren't supposed to have sugar soda with braces, so I had been drinking Diet soda, which has 0 calories. I sort of watched what I ate then, and so since diet soda had 0 calories--- I could have as much of it as I wanted? Wrong. I started having 2-3 cans of it a day. But it is still extremely unhealthy for you. So I stopped.
Since then, I have cheated and had some pop, but usually it's when I'm at a friend's house. I don't know for sure, but I have probably not had more than 20 cans/drinks of pop since 2010 when I decided to stop, and no less than 8.

Another triumph I've made is my reduction of ice cream intake. I used to eat an ENTIRE bucket of icecream/week. I realized this was bad, and I stopped. Of course I still eat ice cream (well I'm quitting it for a while to lower my body fat %), but not a bucket a week.

I also rarely eat hamburgers from fast food/restaurants. I've probably had less than 10 in the past 2 years.

Funny story about hamburgers. Over the summer of 2012, I was training for my half marathon. In August I started to crave an A&W hamburger. I told myself that a hamburger from A&W will be the first thing I eat after my half marathon, as a reward for my hard work. After I ran my half marathon, I was not even hungry. But my mom and her friend asked me what I wanted to eat, so I told them. My mom's friend then informed me that she doesn't think there are any A&Ws in Ottawa. What. What. What. There weren't any. So we went to a random hamburger joint. When we got there, I felt sick, and refused to eat any hamburgers. I think that night I drank a lot of water, I ate a yogurt, some random sample things I got from my swag-bag and maybe a banana or something. I remember I fell asleep munching on a box of cereal too.

Geez.

Well, I just hope that this can inspire someone to know that no matter if it's a diet problem or a workout problem, like missing a few workouts in a row, or eating unhealthy for a while, that you can always still go back to it and start over again.

Get back on that horse!


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