Sunday, January 13, 2013

My body

I blogged before, but now I have something else to say.

People who workout, or worry about their weight frequently think about things like "genetics". I know that a really small percentage of people, actually cannot lose weight, for whatever reason, they have metabolic or some other bodily issue, that doesn't allow them to lose fat and gain muscle as easily.

Well there is me. I look nothing like anyone in my family, but I know I am not adopted.

I have really small bones. I have been considered a "twig" most of my life. In grade 9-10 I had a bit of a disorder, and I thought I was really fat. Now in grade 12, I hate the fact that I am a twig. Now, that doesn't mean I want more fat on my body... I don't, I am still trying to lose fat, always. But I just wish my body structure was larger.

In exercise science we learned about different body types mesomorphic, endomorph and ectomorph. 

There, so I don't have to explain it. I am very ectomorph. I am a little bit mesomorph, but mostly ectomorph.

Girls already have a hard time gaining muscle, and being endomorphic, doesn't help at all.

Most bodybuilders (virtually all of them) are mesomorphic.

Typically, endomorphic males take mass gainer to help them gain weight, but not necessarily fat, but that too. If I were to take that, I would probably explode out of my pants, since I am a girl.

I don't want to gain fat. I am trying to gain muscle and lower my body fat %.

I think I should re-establish what I am trying to accomplish with my body now. I don't consider myself a bodybuilder. I doubt I would ever enter any bodybuilding contests. But I do want muscle. I frankly find it attractive, and so I want it. I remember a while back, I posted some pictures of what I want to look like, and now I sort of have a new idea of what I want to look like. Right now I look like the type of person you would see in the Seventeen magazine workouts, they usually have lean muscle and low body fat %.

These abs. I am going to estimate her body fat percent to be like 8-10%. Mine right now is 17.6%. I would never allow my body fat percent to get below 8%-- for a girl that isn't really healthy. But honestly, if I have never mentioned this before: Abs are made in the kitchen, especially for girls. This means eating lean foods and healthy foods. Also, A SHIT load of cardio. Since I am a runner, I burn an insane amount of calories all of the time, so my body fat % will lower, as long as I eat healthy *most* of the time. I doubt I will have abs like this until late 2014, anyways.


Arms like this would be nice. I chose this photo because I can tell that she has a small bone structure (look at her wrists), like me. I don't think this is overly insane, I can tell she has a low body fat % too.




I can't find any good leg pictures. But just imagine it, okay?

My body is really slender. I look like someone who just goes to the gym to do cardio, compared to others. I do have a significant amount of muscle, but again, since I have a small bone structure, it is practically invisible.

I doubt that I will reach my ideal body until the end of 2014.

I don't know. I just think that muscle is attractive. Plus the actual health benefits--- amazing, and the ability to lift things and do housework shit, would be awesome as well.

It'll be hard. 

30KM Goals!

If you didn't know... I am running a 30K on March 24th. Gulp. The most I've run is 25km.

I have a while more to train, I am hoping to hit 30k, sometime next weekend, or during exams. At least by the end of the month.

I'm probably going to be doing 2-3 runs a week. 1 Run will be my SUPER long run (at least 22kms). I am trying to hit 35k, just because I told myself if I run 35km before the end of February, I will sign up for the Toronto marathon.

My other run will probably be 10-15km, just to have a more relaxed run, or to work on my pace. Lately I've been doing either Saturday or Sunday, and then Wednesday is my shorter run.

Let me talk about goals.

I want to finish the 30k in between the times 2:40:00-2:45:59

Well, I could be faster, but I am hoping for around there. At this rate, I think I will be somewhere around 2:50:00-2:53:00.

But I am trying for around 2:40:00.

Other than time goals, I would like to place in the top 2,500 (there are a total of 8,500 runners) and place in the top 10 for my age category (F15-19). Last year there were 38 people in that category.

I think I have my hopes a little high, but that's good, I will train HARD and long for this!

I just won't wreck my legs.

As long as my time is under 3 hours, and I place in the top 50%, I think I will be pretty darn happy.

But these are my goals.

I will achieve them.

The other thing is that when I am actually running a race, adrenaline gets to me. When I was training for my half marathon, I had only ran the 13 miles, once before, and it took me like 2:30 hours. But when I actually RAN IT for real, my time was around 2:01. I was expecting to come in at 2:20. That was an amazing feeling.

I think that cross country has helped my breathing a lot. Breathing is a lot easier now. But my endurance is kinda shotty (obviously if I ran 25km yesterday, it's not) it's just my legs get tired. I was on running rest for a month, but I could walk, so I would speed-walk uphill on treadmills at the gym, at a 20-25% incline. So I didn't lose too much of my endurance. It's just my legs get REALLY tired REALLY fast. It's from the running movement. Although my body can take endurance and breathing heavy for a long period of time, my legs can't take that repetitive movement.

Yesterday during my run, up until 10km, my pace was good, and I felt good. From 10k-18k, my pace slowed about :10-:20 seconds/km, and then from 18k-20k, I was really "hacking it". The last 5 k, my pace had slowed a whole minute from the first 10k. I was running slower than my average time at my half marathon. It was bad. But at least I finished! I ran 25km in 2:33. Which is pretty good, but not as good as I am hoping for. But literally, my legs were in PAIN intense, horrifying, PAIN for the last 5k.

I also misjudged the length of my run by a long shot.

I don't know. All I want to do is run, but I can barely walk right now. Wednesday I might do 18k.

We'll see.